Literary Discussions

It occurred to me suddenly last year that our "persona" to the world is what it is more because of what we repress and censor than what we express, except obviously a lot of stuff I post is expression and not repression. I mean, for example, in this thread it would not be "nice" to throw the N word (normal) at someone IN the thread. I certainly dont see myself as normal or normative but I do not see myself as a sociopath either. I cant stand any kind of SPORTS. I was working with a man, and right off the bat he made some remark about his favorite team with a strange little smirk on his face and raised his eyebrows and then looked at me expectantly as IF he had said "well, i like bare bosoms so what is it that YOU like, bosoms or bottoms" and I remained silent but if someone presses me then I explain that I have no ability to even FORCE myself to like any sport and if I do glance at the playing field it simply looks to me like an ant farm on steroids and I would not have the foggiest idea who to root for or cheer for, and they are all chasing some sort of ball or puck, and they are all either half naked or ware tight leotards and everyone (at least in days of yore) acted like sports was a very manly thing (and not effeminate) but to me, jumping on each other, in leotards, and slapping each others butt.... well like I said I know I am not normal but I am not a sociopath.